Monthly Archives: January 2007

5h30 is a not a good time. It just isn’t. To try wake up at 5h30 is not a good or easy thing. I got enough sleep, so I didn’t feel too bad, but I didn’t feel to good either. I was quite surprised at the amount of traffic at 6am. I thought that it would be less than there was, but it was still MUCH better.

I arrived at 6h45 to Retreat MOU and there was  n o t h i n g  going on. There was a woman who had just delivered being cleaned up, so I got that lovely human smell of placenta and bodily fluids which made me want to crawl under a rock and die at 7am. It was good to see the woman I delivered again. Her baby was quite vocal. The day went very very slowly. I was feeling tired and my joints were hurting as they do when I am not relaxing and distressing enough. I felt seriously unwell during my shift. A patient arrived complaining of decreased foetal movements, but she seemed alright. We referred her to Groote Schuur for an ultrasound. 2 other woman came in in very early labour. I examined them, wrote them up and did PV exams on them. They were discharged.

At 11h30 I got my logbook signed and missioned. There was a floridly psychotic woman having a preach outside the community healthy center. I told a nurse who didn’t seem to care and the security guards said that she is a regular feature in the area, and is never harmful to anybody. I think she has biopolar 1 disorder and should be put onto medication.

I am finding my work in obstetric and neonatology incredibly draining and am struggling to cope with it. One day at a time

I phoned 2 gps in the hope that one of them would be able to unblock my left ear without having to put those irritating drops in them for 2 days before, but they wouldn’t. Feeling sore and irritable I went home and slept. I woke up feeling sore and irritable. Its the circle of fucking life.

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Today I started my week at retreat mou. On first impression, and generally afterwards, it seems to be a much friendlier patient centered and happy place. Woman get pethadine as they need it, not only in the most sever circumstances and there is generally a hugely higher standard of privacy and care. Patients are afforded the respect and dignity they deserve.

It was also quite slow to start off with. I admitted a patient – G2P1 in latent phase of the first stage of labour with her cervical os 2-3cm dilated and 1.5cm effaced. It was still early days. Every hour I needed to check her blood pressure, pulse, temperature and duration of contractions. I also needed to check the foetal heart rate. She was a strong and good natured woman who endured the agony of labour quietly and with a surprising amount of dignity.

In the 45 minutes per hour that I wasn’t doing that I practiced taking blood in the bookings area and had my “lunch.” At one stage a woman admitted at 7 months gestation with spontaneous rupture of membranes (water broke). We found a foetal heart in her small uterus. When the nurse came to do the PV (per vaginal examination) she said the babies masserated head was engaged. Masserated implies that the baby had died earlier in utero and had started decomposing, not quite rotting because there are no bacteria, but decomposing. We pointed out that there was a high foetal heart, so there must be twins. It was cool because we did something beneficial. If we hadn’t pointed out the foetal heart the sisters might have induced labour or the like and the second one could have been lost. 5 hours later when I left the flying squad had just arrived.

At 1:30, my woman was due for her 4 hours PV, but then a nurse came in and said look at this baby its not breathing. Everybody crowded around the foetal resuscitation trolley and gave a hand. I helped with suction and held the drip. They suctioned and suctioned serious quantities of milk out of the babies respiratory tree. The bagged it and bagged it and it gasped and gave a cry, but never breathed by itself. They tried to intubate it, but couldn’t because there was so much milk.  Community service doctors were fetched from the ajoining community health center, who also couldn’t intubate, but they continued bagging and hooked the baby up to oxygen. An IV line was put up and the babies blood glucose was checked. Onces the babies oxygen saturation was back up to 100% and the IV line was up it had been a while. The baby was now regularly having seizures – a sign of hypoxic ischaemic encephalopathy (brain damage caused by lack of blood and oxygen to the brain). HIE normally is the forerunner of cerebral palsy. Because the baby drank too much milk, vomited and then inhaled the milk it is not fucked for the rest of its life. Would it not have been kinder for mother and baby to let it pass away?

My woman went into active labour and delivered quickly by about 3pm. A healthy girl. She never wants to have another baby. She was relieved that the baby was out. I felt that I was able to provide comfort for her during her labour which was good.

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In a similar way to that of a physical wound, there are two ways in which people deal with serious emotional hurt. The wound can either be left to heal by itself through ignoring it and waiting, or the wound can be painfully cleaned out (debrided) and then be allowed to heal more cleanly.

I am a fundamentalist when it comes to this issue. I do not feel that it is healthy and honest for me to sit and wait until the end of days for festering wounds to heal, so when something hurts I try and deal with it by engaging with that person. Failing the establishment of dialog between myself and the other party involved I become stuck and wait until they are ready to open the dialog. You can ask Satan, who I spent a year and a half dying because of their unwillingness to dialog with me, but in the end we spoke and it was worth it and I moved on.

Tonight I think I will start trying to deal with another painful relationship gone sour. I don’t enjoy it, but ain li ma laasot.

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So on Thursday night I managed to prick myself with a needle while working the night shift in the hospital. My first reaction was to look at my finger, which seemed intact, so I continued with what I was doing. I looked again after a few seconds and their was blood. I then gave up on pretending it didn’t happened and followed protocol. Milk wound, wash with soap and water, disinfect, tell person in charge, get ARVs. I took blood from the patient and, no knowing what else to do, kept it in my pocket

The next day I had to report to staff health at Groote Schuur hospital. I got spoken to for a while then got blood taken and gave in the patients blood. A few hours later I found out the patients blood as negative for all infective agents so I could stop treatment.

I was not stressed out because these things happen. I do not believe we can choose when the hand of death passes over us and takes us. Sometime everybody has to awaken from the dream.

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“You see it’s to ‘m’s no 1, “Mmungo” not mango. I’m not a
fruit,” the large black nurse carefully instructed us with a slight hint of
humour in her voice sussing us out with her brown warm eyes. We were sitting in
the corner of the staff room in Mitchels Plain midwife obstetric uni, Mark Alex
and I, and feeling a mixture of anticipation and exciting for week to come. I
quickly learned that the sisters working at Mitchel’s Plain MOU were warm,
intelligent and funny people which I thoroughly enjoyed working with and
learning from – eager teachers with quick inquiring minds and concern for us
and our studies.

 

There was a very steep learning curve on the first night,
working 7pm to 7am. We cooked and ate our food and arrived in our then clean
white coats with minds full of theoretical knowledge, yet relatively void of
applications. We learned quickly how to take patients through, log them in the
register, get a urine sample, take blood pressure, pulse, assess the lie of the
foetus, and listen to the foetal heart. We were thrown in the deep end with per vaginal examinations and assessing
whether or not the woman was having contractions and whether or not her
membranes were intact.

 

I felt horrified seeing our hard the nurses were on the
patients. I had no idea how much pain women went through in the hours and hours
leading up to delivery. Patients would come in struggling to walk and the
sisters would shout at them and ask “How are you going to deliver a baby if you
cannot even walk in the early stages?” Women in the active phase of the first
stage of labour were often told things like “Stop shouting or I’m going to
leave you to deliver by yourself.” Overall I was pretty shocked.

 

The first delivery I observed happened very quickly. The
nurses told us that the lady was going to deliver, so I ran to fetch Mark, one
of our trio, and then went to watch. Due to my inexperience I stood 1 and a
half meters from the foot of the bed. The woman’s waters broke shooting
amniotic fluid in my directions. I reacted and tried to side-step it. A small
quantity landed on my leg and shoe. I will never forget that sight.

 

Generally the first few days were quite slow. I spent a lot
of time reading fiction, chatting to the nurses and other students and playing
card games. Even on the slowest night I refused to go sleep when nothing was
happening because I cope better on no sleep than little sleep. The sisters who
are on ship divide into2 teams, one of which goes “on lunch” from about 12 to
5. This means that they go sleep in the post-natal ward. The facilities were
adequate and the experience excellent.

 

I delivered my first baby on the second or third night. The sister’s
concept of sterile was in conflict with my concept of sterile. I was shocked at
the fact that the women passed feces when given birth. The strain at the very
end of the 2nd stage is amazing. I have gained a lot of respect for
people who have had children, especially a few children, by normal vaginal
route. I did not understand that supporting the perenium meant to push against
it that hard. The procedure after birth went quite well. I found it difficult
to prioritise things. I felt very relieved for my patients once their babies
were out. They were all happy. I was pleased that they all had planned
pregnancies. I was very fond of the first woman I delivered. She was one of
those women who didn’t care what was expected of her; she just did and was
happy. She spent most of her time pre and post delivery walking around with her
gown hanging wide open and her breast hanging out. At one point she came into
the nurse’s station and started drinking their water and telling them what she
thought of this and that. She had a lot of character.

 

I do not like babies very much and did not feel anything
towards the ones I delivered.

 

Overall I thoroughly enjoyed my stay at MPMOU and learned a
great deal

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What’s the deal with facebook suddenly. In the last 7 days I’ve received 7 invites, 4 just today. Have people finally lost it? Whats going on? The only reason why I have a facebook account is so that I can accept all the invites to other people’s facebooks accounts. I have no photos and have no invited anybody to join my facebook. There is a serious facebook related issue going on today.

I had an amazing fight with a close friend of mine. I was at shul(synogouge) because my dad insisted that I came went with his fiance who is not jewish to keep her company. There were 9 people ther and I was the 10th. You need to have 10 people in order to run a shul service. After 10 minutes my dad said that I could leave, I asked another guy who said it should be fine so I left with a free conscience.

2 days later I sms a friend whos dad was in shul to tell her that I had a dream about her family. She then replies that she is very angry and
disapointed in me for leaving shul and therefore causing her dad not to
be able to say kaddish. I reply that I am not sorry because I didn’t do
anything that I thought was wrong. I asked 2 people and they said it
would be fine. She says that I have disrespected her, her dad, and her
dead grandfather, and that her dad has band me from their house. To
which I reply that it doesn’t matter htat I have been banned from her
house because she never invites me over or calls or smses anyway. and
that I had asked permission before I left shul. She then replied that I
have no respect for anyone or anything. Then I told her that she wasn’t
listenning to me and that I asked permission from people before I left
and that I didn’t know her grandfather had died. Then 20 minutes later
I smsed her that I was sorry for upsetting her dad. Then today I
emailed her dad to applogise. All this was going on in my mom’s house, which was kinda awkward to say the least

Mitchel’s plain midwife obstetric unit till Friday

GO MPMOU!

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It had just recently dawned on me that today was going to be the last free day that I was going to have for a very long time. I made lots of appointments, got my hair cut and did things that should keep me in good stead until the next snitch of free time I have.

I also got the privilege of taking photos of my new second cousin getting his foreskin removed in his brit milah. This meant that I got dangerous close to Rabbis. It could have been them or me at any point. The only thing staying my hand was the thought of smoked salmon to come. I ate a lot of smoked salmon… mmm smoked salmon

Waitress from sinful is not replying to my smses. One of the following things must have happened:
1. She no longer exists
2. Her phone got stolen
3. She’s out of phone credit.
4. She has been injured in a way which prevents her from communicating
5. She is pissed off, not interested, or may other things which might cause people to be rude and uncivil to you.

I care about 5% about that.

Ja

shnap time. Sleep that stops you from snapping

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I have a lot of very strange dreams. I could write a book on last night. It has faded now, in the way dreams tend to over time.

I remember one part of the dream involved remembering that there was a part of either school or previous years of varsity that I had not completed and had to. I couldn’t remember what it was. I was so anxious.

There was a party where I hooked up with somebody.

Things were twisting and changing.

I dreamed a lifetime and forgot it all as I opened my eyes

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Today I went to Vanguard Day hospital to learn about examining pregnant woman’s abdomens. I saw something truly breathtaking. I room with a 3 story high ceiling, about 100m longs with about 800 people all sitting around, sweating and waiting to be seen. It was a mind blowing, numbing experience.

I would not sit in the at queue for anything short of quadruple amputations.

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…Pity? It was pity that stayed bilbo’s hand. We don’t know that part golem has to play…

Life is a strange thing. Today I went out with the waitress who smsed me. I was on good form and on my best behavior. I was funny, polite, paid for her, opened and shut doors. She was a person similar to me we connected and it was good.

Its a pity she has decided to go study in Pretoria again this year. It is a pity she isn’t interested in having a relationship.

Nap Time

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